two men sitting a little ways behind him his sadness no longer a private emotion

at that hour there was no way he couldn't have noticed

didn't close his eyes didn't look at anything just sat as if going nowhere

it wasn't cynicism it wasn't humility he was out of his depth

no laughing tactics need to change a giggle is preferred over silence

not a name that I made up sort of a nickname I go stuck with

he says he never intended it in the first place after finishing he acquiesced

it's not his movie icily unconventional tending to undermine its effectiveness

a moment's hesitation I'm not the type to interfere in another person's business

must have gotten impatient and said something he stuck his hand out without showing himself

an ironic transporting moment devoted wordless soaring improvisation

out late a good time came faster than anyone had anticipated

managing to make interesting an instrument that I considered extremely difficult

hundreds doing yoga in the street wandering shoppers no vandalism I should be grateful

there were at least thirty of them preventing him from going any farther

he hadn't yet used up all the life that had welled up inside him

now there were ten then twelve more and more were showing up from the bistro and elsewhere

and then there were seven then only six then three then five again

his light was off his bed groaned a loud roar from the street shot through the room

reading about jazz from late until early then listening through the morning

through the swinging doors and into the vast reception hall

it was certain sounds that were constant here

two men in the back stopped talking to watch

the present being all I have to affirm

information that is inconsistent is treated as false

uselessness at the task of anything but unreachable revolutions

an imagination half-obscured by venetian blinds

the non-language he couldn't learn to speak

he keeps things and describes himself as difficult

the desire to keep what might be needed later

quickly turning it into chaos

conjuring as done by insects and bugs